Have you ever felt like the biggest pansy on Earth before? Felt like you were damnn useless? That words of one could smash you to pieces? Feel so non-dependent? That all you expect would never be obtained? That all you were expecting of is bullshit to begin with as it was nothing in the first place? That all you think was right has utterly come to the conclusion that it is wrong? Question the unquestionable and let the curiosity gut the living life out of you? Feel your flaws crawling all over your skin? Feel weakness? Ignorance? Stupidity?

Yes I felt it. All the above and many more of those negative feelings that i've been building in my mind. Am i a Optimistic person? I used to think i was.. well.. not till yesterday. but i guess i do think so again today, as.... things will be changing.

Thanks to you Cheryl. For slapping sense into that thick skull of mine back on the normal track. For being there once again to save my day and my life (: your words will never be forgotten i assure you. Well even if i do.. SLAP ME AGAIN hahahah... Thank you so much sis! <3

okay enough for the omgwtfsuperbbqchillicurrysauce self reflecting shizzo as mentioned above. My freakin first ever blog entry in my life and its this kinda stuff. Oh wells. I guess everything happens for a reason. I will always remember this date for i was enlightened (: hahahahaha yay! shit i'm going back into the topic again.. okay Soooo..... hmm how was your day Ben? IT BARELY EVEN STARTED! hah! Nation Building test is tomorrow and i'm doing my first ever blog entry, shitamama. hmm but this is indeed quite a therapeutic feeling of ranting over issues. i guess i'll be seeing this blog again sometime soon again :)

off to the books now!